Thanks Dad!

With the creation of my Dad's first blog I decided I should update this bad boy. I really don't have a whole lot to report right now. Just your average post-midterm life crisis. I'm once again questioning EVERYTHING in my life. The good news is that since grad school is only 2 years long, I only have one more year until it's time for a new change. This is much better than the previous 4, 3, and 2 that I've gone through before.

I'm considering going back to school for a degree in dance. I know it sounds a little nutty considering I haven't taken dance technique classes in almost a decade, but recently dancing is the only thing that's made me really happy. Maybe it's the fact that it's my own thing, and it separates me from the rest of the "coherd" but it just seems like Maybe I oughta give it a real shot. My mom made the good point that most of my undergrad credits will probably transfer toward another bachelor's if I decide to get another one. AND that I don't have to use the dance degree to be a ballerina, but I can combine it with my Masters in Higher Ed and be like, an academic advisor for a dance department someday. Which actually sounds pretty cool.

I really wish I had a Serious mentor on campus here. I need someone who will just listen to all my crazy thoughts and then help me sort through them, and give me some good insight as to what they think I would do well in.

Ughhh, the real reason I have so many times like this is because I have SO MUCH that I want to do with myself, but I lack either the talent, self-confidence, or motivation to do any of it. Some things I realize will just not happen for me. I will more than likely not be dancing on broadway, or on Dancing with the Stars-- that requires talent. And while I lack that kind of talent, I know I'm not a total spaz, and I can hold a rhythm, and I can learn choreography well. Also, I'm pretty smart. I think I ask good questions, and I write pretty well (if I do say so myself!) However, I'm not a straight A student by any means, and I also tend to find myself easily distracted. For example, I should be working on a presentation right now, but instead-- I'm blogging! This is where the motivation comes in handy. These are things I just don't know how to get. I'm pretty motivated in Dance right now, but again, is that because I really love it, or because I'm bored with the other work I'm supposed to be doing?

The answer to all my questions is: Who knows?!

Thanks a bunch Dad!